Results are out and i am at the all time low now. The results that i got seriously makes me wonder if hardwork ever pays off? There is a saying of you reap what you sow but i certainly doesnt not believe i really deserve this. Its not even anywhere near my expectation. BULLSHIT to all those who say hardwork will pay off.

Does my going to school every single day to study not worth a thing? Reaching school as early as 8am and leaving as late as 10pm. Isnt this consider hardwork? While people are talking cock and playing psp, i am tryin my best to solve the past year papers. Isnt that enough? I feel like screaming my lungs out but seeing the time now. I would have really been crazy to do that. I am crushed, demoralished. I feel like there is no longer any pt in continuing to work hard if i dont get the deserved results. Well, maybe talent got a hand in it. Maybe i really dont have the talent in studying. Hearing people scoring 3.82, 4.2, 4.7, i feel like i am really an idiot.

Its an irony that 2 hrs ago, i was still telling my friend that if she shld need someone to talk to after checking her results, she can come to me. In the end, the one who scored worst was me.

I hate my results, i hate the fact i put in so much time, i hate the fact that i still got 5 more such sems to go... F**K