Something has happened to me. Not like its very sudden but it can happen to almost everybody. At first i expect myself to break down and get all emo-ed for the next few weeks, but i cant explain how i felt now. There's this slight pain in my chest and thats all. A single tear flowed down my cheek and thats all. Not the breaking down and bursting into tears that i had expected. whats happening to me? i really do not know. Numbed maybe? Or maybe i have already felt it coming all the time, its just sooner or later. I began asking myself questions. Is that it? Alone now? What am i going to do next? I guess its going to take me some time to figure them out. But i know i am definitely not alone, i still got a lot of friends out there right? and i am sure we could still be good friends no? Thank you for everything that u have done. You are still the best gf i have ever had, well thats becos u are the only one i had. =)

Now its down to telling the people around me. It hurts to talk about it again but i guess it have to be done. I hope those who have seen these, try not to ask too much. It will take time, but i will be fine. After 83days, i am back to where i started.